The Journey of Writing
In case you haven’t noticed, the world has gone to shit. Wearing a mask is terrible (though we don’t complain about seatbelts), racists are just using their freedom of speech, and professional athletes have to play to stadiums of cardboard cut outs. It’s the worst the world has ever been (if you conveniently forget about slavery, the black plague, and both world wars).
This has been a trying time in many ways. No, I don’t have what I can eat rationed out by the government. No, I won’t be drafted at any moment. No, I don’t have a 1 in 4 chance of death if I so much as take a brisk walk around the block. This has been trying for other reasons.
Many of us have experienced 2 things: disturbing revelations on the inner workings of our loved ones’ morals and the realization we have no self-discipline. As to the first, good luck. As to the second, there are numerous resources and I will attempt to add to them.
You cannot be self-disciplined if you are floundering. You need to find a pillar within yourself from which to draw strength. This is your purpose, your drive, your greatest ambition. For me this is spreading truth to enable compassion. (I must do this in various ways for those that have chosen ignorance must be tricked into empathy. Someone that is racist but sees themselves in a dragonborn character will slowly start to see that one’s humanity is not reliant on appearance.)
This is my purpose: to improve the world, one person at a time, through my writing. That is what keeps me sane. I can’t rid the world of pollution and I can’t give every pedophile a brain aneurism but I can write the truth. I can write what the world needs to be reminded of. I can teach compassion and enable understanding through my writing. This is what keeps me from going adrift.
I can’t tell you what your pillar is. You have to find it for yourself. And when you do? Hold on to it, like your very being depends on it, because it just might.
Once you have motivation, you’ll find a greater willingness to do what you should. As for actually doing it? Routines help. Being able to go on autopilot once in a while can be a good thing. If it’s between that or watching that series for the third time eating yet another bag of chips… autopilot isn’t so bad.
Find your pillar and work towards it, even when you don’t really feel like it. It can bring you out of a bad mood. Even when it doesn’t, you’ve worked towards something that matters to you. As the days pass, you’ll look back and know you made the world better in your own way. You’re closer to achieving something that really matters to you. When the world is crazy, a truth like that keeps you sane.